perfectionist
Thru yesterday Pastor willie said that he is a perfectionist ( he is designer too hahaha ), coz he say he will get upset if those activities did not fall into plan according his time table.
well suddenly i jus think of me.. hahah this is jus so true of me. I always get frustrated if meetings start late, or drag too long.. coz i think "It's not fall into according to my plan", n i very good in controlling shepherding time.. usually when i plan for one hour shepherding.. IT surely end in one hour time.. so ideal yea.. but not all the time, sometimes need to be flexible to different needs of the ppl.. i think it is very effective for me coz i can do 2 session shepherdin per night!~ thats amazing for me
Thats why i most of the time get frustrated with my boss coz he always brief me work AFTER lunch time or about lunch time.. n things need to completed within the day.. sometimes i jus think why not i jus go to office at 11am instead of reaching there 9 am.. i feel like my time been wasted away. its jus like a big contrast where i get so BUSY during non working time, but I am SO FREE during working time.. That is so unbalance.. n its weird. if i can take some of the free time during working hour then .. my ministry won be so tiring..
SOmetimes i OT not because of i am so busy, instead i really free.. BUt jus coz of the boss brief after lunch.. n causing me need to complete the work within the day n causing OT = ="""
n due to i am perfectionist, i tend to get angry all the time.. Of course i even more upset if the date been set with John n it doesn turn out at the end..
i feel like a nerd or stupid person when i stare at his house TV n do NOTHING.. i jus remember nicely on monday night. i was so dizzy and i donno wats the TV show talking about... n he jus so enjoy watching it haha, im not saying the Show not good. jus that i too long nv w3atch TV, i already not use to the NORMAL people lifestyle, the date end up misarable ... i stay there for one hour n cant tahan i jus go back.. of course not his fault.. jus coz of my self centeredness that expect that he will know wat to do to accompany me.. :P which is not right..
of course today as well, dinner with him been canceled as usual i get upset... not coz of his fault, jus coz he is simply busy n not feeling well.. but coz of my self centeredness and perfection thinking.. i jus get really upset.. o well... God help me ... I do not know wat to do..
i don think going nepal could be a really big problem in this coz i know i won "plan" any date during the one month times, but all these really hard to say.. coz i am a selfish person..
well suddenly i jus think of me.. hahah this is jus so true of me. I always get frustrated if meetings start late, or drag too long.. coz i think "It's not fall into according to my plan", n i very good in controlling shepherding time.. usually when i plan for one hour shepherding.. IT surely end in one hour time.. so ideal yea.. but not all the time, sometimes need to be flexible to different needs of the ppl.. i think it is very effective for me coz i can do 2 session shepherdin per night!~ thats amazing for me
Thats why i most of the time get frustrated with my boss coz he always brief me work AFTER lunch time or about lunch time.. n things need to completed within the day.. sometimes i jus think why not i jus go to office at 11am instead of reaching there 9 am.. i feel like my time been wasted away. its jus like a big contrast where i get so BUSY during non working time, but I am SO FREE during working time.. That is so unbalance.. n its weird. if i can take some of the free time during working hour then .. my ministry won be so tiring..
SOmetimes i OT not because of i am so busy, instead i really free.. BUt jus coz of the boss brief after lunch.. n causing me need to complete the work within the day n causing OT = ="""
n due to i am perfectionist, i tend to get angry all the time.. Of course i even more upset if the date been set with John n it doesn turn out at the end..
i feel like a nerd or stupid person when i stare at his house TV n do NOTHING.. i jus remember nicely on monday night. i was so dizzy and i donno wats the TV show talking about... n he jus so enjoy watching it haha, im not saying the Show not good. jus that i too long nv w3atch TV, i already not use to the NORMAL people lifestyle, the date end up misarable ... i stay there for one hour n cant tahan i jus go back.. of course not his fault.. jus coz of my self centeredness that expect that he will know wat to do to accompany me.. :P which is not right..
of course today as well, dinner with him been canceled as usual i get upset... not coz of his fault, jus coz he is simply busy n not feeling well.. but coz of my self centeredness and perfection thinking.. i jus get really upset.. o well... God help me ... I do not know wat to do..
i don think going nepal could be a really big problem in this coz i know i won "plan" any date during the one month times, but all these really hard to say.. coz i am a selfish person..