when i get so tension and down, i done this.. i like vector art very much.. but i never really done one.. this is the first one i done =).. suddenly.. proud of myself haha... maybe i am best work under pressure? NO i think my best work is wat i like to do when i am emotional..

why we need to change a new phone?

there are alot of new phones with high technology out there. The very first "dai ko dai" is a big one with only a function "to call". Then slowly become "miss call" as a sign of information, then to "msg". Then black n white screen is not enough, change to colour screen. black n white msg is not attractive anymore, upgrade to colour picture msg, colour text. Now you can record your own voice and send as msg.. if you think it is not realistic enough? or not impactful enough to leave a voice msg? you can "video record" yourself and send to your fren, im sure they will call you back.. hahaha

thats fun.. BUT, do i need all these?

No i don't, maybe i not yet civilized yet. Living in 80's and 90's an still comfortable for me. Coz i just know how to send msg and call! I dono how to use MMS, i nv save a picture from phone to PC. Never send a picture msg, nv download a ringtone. (yea i use the original one from my phone). Nv bluetoothing before... lol..

Orang kampung.. hehe.. ow.. my nokia 1100

I remember last 4 months i save nothing, 5th month abit ..

was thinking to save up 2.4k a year it seems like not a possibility. During February, i learn up a financial budgeting tool. To budget before you spend your money and budget to save.. i find it quite useful.. N at the same time i just realize i don have much luxury to spend too, therefore i work it very hard last month. Even though i spend lessor on myself but i still practising on giving, i bless others more. N i hold on giving a little more than 10% tithes EVERYMONTH since i start working till now.

N i see God is providing, ang pau money and saving.. FEbruary i save about RM800 in total =) thats great. i know RM800 is not much to some of you or even not useful, but for me is really a good start ..

I didn't expect much in bible conference, sometimes i just think that it is another meeting again with other church brothers and sisters.

BUt i was so much wrong!..

It is an awesome conference, feeling the refreshing moment from God again =) I have been tired, stress, worry for sometimes. BUt on friday night, this is a story from bible speaking to my heart.

in 1 king chapter 17 telling a story about a woman giving out her oil to make bread for Elijah . One day God impress the woman's heart to give what she has to Elijah and left a little for her n her son. It's hurt, because is like giving out 80% of my salary n left 20% for my own. She left nothing but only that portion of oil that can offer to Elijah, she obey God and her jar nv empty with oil after that.

God encourage me continue to give, when you give with conviction from God, you will be blessed. I am sure when God asking me to give, i sure left a little "I" and not losing all my life. I have been in a dilemma situation when i know i am ready to be CL not long later.. maybe in April.. and i might be one of the worship leader during one of the student big meeting.. I feel like I donno how to do.. I know i was a CL before. But i have been long time didn do it. nowdays i already not the old Joleen, i donno how to lead, donno what should i do..

even when i fetch the visitors. I forget to let them go down to church first before i park my car, someone last time tell me also ONLY LEADERS are going to leadership conference in Thailand, I am not one of them.. I remember all these, i don think i have leader's quality..

even back ups.. i always get a comment that can;t hear my voice. remember Poh kiat 's facial expression when i about to become his assistant worship leader.. I remember it. and think about all these..

But when think about the woman giving what she only has, it might be hard and shameful for me as i will think. thats the only thing i can do to serve a great man like ELIJAH?
And start to give whatever i can give and watever i have to God certainly.. God will bring me thru.. it might be hard, but God certainly will =)

N another thing is sin can hinder us from being refreshed by God.. thats new thing i have learn thru this bible conference..

+) Thank God

I actually start trained to write dairy since standard 2 haha.. which is so early..

that time my dad teach me how to write. I remember that time i donno alot of words, so i like playing fill in the blanks games.. after some w( )ds will have ( ) .. or X to replace words that i donno how to write.. very cute.. Or even greater i will draw it out ,..hahaa.. then my parents will read it..

I lost that book.. hope to find it back haha..

After i stop writing for long time, i start it back at form 3 where i facing alot of problems.. diary become my best fren. Up to now i have 4 to 5 books which only one completed.. the rest alot of blank space.. i keep it coz sometimes it helps to think how silly i am and where can i improve. MOreover, it helps me to keep my memories.. coz i always forget things..

thanks you, diary used to be my best friend =) where i can put whatever things i can , and it help me.. MUAKSSS>>>

why different?

1. this year when go back to kedah .. we no need to go temple!! hooooraaaayyy,,, thats one of the greatest fear i ever had.. coz i hate goin to chinese temple!! peaceful and get alot of ang pau,. coz my dad very rajin on meeting frens n relatives LOL>..

2. visiting uncle in tesco. this is first time we visit uncle at tesco where he sell burger,, haha we gather by ordering his burgers LOL..

3. cameron trip.. well yea trips again in cameron. By avoiding bored, i play games with my cousin.. i got alot of young and cute cousins n newphew.. wuahaha.. play until 2 am... we are more energetic than the parents there..

4. vomit.. yea. i vomited in the car when the trip back from cameron.. this is not my first time but yea second time

5. company dinner.. lol.. my first time company dinner =)


this chinese new year is much more fruitful than last year .. keke