I didn't expect much in bible conference, sometimes i just think that it is another meeting again with other church brothers and sisters.

BUt i was so much wrong!..

It is an awesome conference, feeling the refreshing moment from God again =) I have been tired, stress, worry for sometimes. BUt on friday night, this is a story from bible speaking to my heart.

in 1 king chapter 17 telling a story about a woman giving out her oil to make bread for Elijah . One day God impress the woman's heart to give what she has to Elijah and left a little for her n her son. It's hurt, because is like giving out 80% of my salary n left 20% for my own. She left nothing but only that portion of oil that can offer to Elijah, she obey God and her jar nv empty with oil after that.

God encourage me continue to give, when you give with conviction from God, you will be blessed. I am sure when God asking me to give, i sure left a little "I" and not losing all my life. I have been in a dilemma situation when i know i am ready to be CL not long later.. maybe in April.. and i might be one of the worship leader during one of the student big meeting.. I feel like I donno how to do.. I know i was a CL before. But i have been long time didn do it. nowdays i already not the old Joleen, i donno how to lead, donno what should i do..

even when i fetch the visitors. I forget to let them go down to church first before i park my car, someone last time tell me also ONLY LEADERS are going to leadership conference in Thailand, I am not one of them.. I remember all these, i don think i have leader's quality..

even back ups.. i always get a comment that can;t hear my voice. remember Poh kiat 's facial expression when i about to become his assistant worship leader.. I remember it. and think about all these..

But when think about the woman giving what she only has, it might be hard and shameful for me as i will think. thats the only thing i can do to serve a great man like ELIJAH?
And start to give whatever i can give and watever i have to God certainly.. God will bring me thru.. it might be hard, but God certainly will =)

N another thing is sin can hinder us from being refreshed by God.. thats new thing i have learn thru this bible conference..

+) Thank God